Thread by @snickelsox

#FlashFicFeb
It’s dumb. I float away from the station and all I can think about it my own ego. My awards, my work. Shouldn’t I be thinking of more meaningful things? Shouldn’t my last moments be of my family or something? Why did I immediately think about unfinished work? 1/

The human mind is dumb though. All this power and we can’t even self-evaluate without making a huge effort to do it. People can just “be” racist, angry, abusive, all the phobics, and not even know. How the hell do we evolve like that? How is that beneficial? Oh wait, I’m dying 2/

They are scrambling around in there. Coms are broken, that was my job to fix. Should I wave? How much- ok like 10 minutes. Damn surge got me good. They might die too. Wouldn’t that just be my luck. I’d sure miss Jack but the others... the hell? Why wouldn’t I miss them? 3/

Ok focus, now is not the time to start overthinking again. You can’t waste time thinking about thinking. You need to think. On what? On how you’re going to die? There’s no- nope, that... no. Well... shit. Gonna miss Susan’s birthday party. Did you remember to sign her card? 4/

Wouldn’t that be something? The last thing you signed on earth was her birthday card. Her grandkids would probably sell it one day though. Man, humans are dumb. How have we not figured out how to put our brains in robots yet? All this work I did to be this person... 5/

Well they’re doing something now. Jack is... what the hell is he doing? Ah, whatever, I’m dead anyway. Too far away to save. And even if they did, how long would I have to move this knowledge on? I spent so long on this body, this mind. How long did I have left anyway? 6/

It took me this long to get to this point. What about all the other things I could have done? Not that I wanted to but I could have tried! No. You wouldn’t. You know that. Then why does this all feel like such a waste? Do you think you’re that important? You know you’re not. 7/

Well yeah I know that but what else was I going to do? Let the void just eat me? You’re kind of doing that now. But this wasn’t on purpose. Doesn’t matter, this void or a different one, they are all hungry. Remember that time that Homer went to hell and just kept eating? 8/

My final moments are going to be used thinking about the Simpsons. I lived as I died. Did you just make yourself laugh? You’re dying! Be serious. Think somber thoughts. Like how it doesn’t matter? How all my work was literally for nothing. That I worked so hard for this and... 9/

What the!? They’ve got some cable on me? Oh, no, they just snagged the old one. Some long arm or something. Guess I’m saved? Out of this void at least. Could we not think about the void please? No, you need to tackle this. You either matter or you don’t. 10/

We all know I don’t. Not really. We can’t think about space the way we do and pretend we matter. Why not? Because were too small. Or they’re too big. What? Exactly, what. What matters out there? Well, everything. Except it doesn’t. That crap is too big to care about. 11/

But it’s my job to care about it. No. Not it is not. It’s your job to care about humans and how the junk out there may affect them. People first, silly space junk second. We’re almost saved so you probably need to think of something important to say. Something profound. 12/

The airlock seals behind you and everyone breathes a sigh of relief. Your helmet comes off and a cough escapes.
“We thought we lost you out there! Are you alright?” Jack asks.
You think deeply and clear your throat.
“Do you remember that time in the Simpsons when Homer...”
/end

An astronaut’s last thoughts was something I was trying to quickly tackle here. Just because they are flying into space doesn’t mean their thoughts wouldn’t be as scattered or inane as our own. Since it’s in their head, the “character” speaking is a little fluid. Hope you enjoy.

Did not know about the 500 word limit for #FlashFicFeb so I guess this one doesn’t fit the bill. That’s ok though, it’s supposed to be “literary doodling” and I think this one very much fit that. Lots of scribbled ideas without a lot of sense. 😂