I SURE LOVE FINALLY GETTING TO WORK ON A PROJECT ONLY TO HAVE A PIECE OF SHIT PROGRAM THAT HAS WORKED CONSISTENTLY FOR YEARS START HAVING NONSENSE BULLSHIT IMPOSSIBLE PROBLEMS
premiere has decided I can't copy clip keyframes anymore. this destroys my entire workflow. google it and just find endless threads of people who just suddenly couldn't do it one day and then even a reinstall didn't help.
I SURE FUCKING LOVE HAVING EVERY SINGLE ATOM OF MY ENERGY SAPPED POURING TWO HOURS INTO TRYING TO FIX SOMETHING THAT ONLY AFFECTS THIRTY FRAMES OF VIDEO BUT I LITERALLY CANNOT CONTINUE WITHOUT IT DONE
ITS NOT LIKE I HAVE SIX MORE HOURS OF WORK TO DO WHICH IS GOING TO TURN INTO TEN HOURS SPREAD ACROSS TWO DAYS BECAUSE OF THIS
I HATE THIS FUCKING SOFTWARE
I HATE THIS FUCKING SOFTWARE
i always forget that this, this is why i don't try. because the only things i nkow how to do are on the computer, and computers don't work.
i only know how to do like six things in this program because i'm so fucked just trying to get t he bare minimum done in between its pointless random feature disablements that happen for no reason and can't be fixed.
three months from now i'll come back to continue this project when thinking about it no longer makes me want to just sob in disappointment and everything will just work. the video will get 23 views
computers make everything so fucking hard that it's not worth doing unless you're planning to become a millionaire off of it. why even fucking bother when I'm losing years off my life because of horseshit like this?
how is someone with ADHD supposed to REMEMBER WHAT THEY WERE TRYING TO DO when every single step requires 20-30 minutes of fucking around desperately smashing buttons and restarting the software trying to get shit working, or fighting with shitty UI?
how is someone with ADHD supposed to execute on a video project when the effects that I see in my head require dozens of highly precise and obscure actions in the UI, for something that should be dead simple? which *would be straightforward on physical editing equipment*
if i was editing on three tape decks i'd reverse this piece of video by turning the fucking knob to the left. in premiere i have to figure out which of 19 diferent ways i should do it, and they have side effects I can't predict
i don't care that it works for other people or that there are explanations. it's bad. i hate it. and it's an obstacle between me and my goals that, more often than not, i can't hurdle.
i just want something that doesn't drag my productivity to a crawl every five minutes. fuck
even if exiting the program fixes the issue, EVEN SPENDING TWENTY MINUTES COMPLAINING ON TWITTER has LESS impact on my *broken, ADHD-affected brain* than restarting the program. restarting the program will cause me to forget *everything* i'm doing.
i don't know why i fucking bother when everything is stacked against me and the slightest roadblock always completely stops me in my tracks.
my brain is not architected for this. it's architected for, idk, running from predators. it's not adapted for modern intellectual pursuits and i'm fighting nature
it's the same reason i'll never be a good employee. i'm good at "running a report." i'm bad at "chasing down three people from other departments who won't answer the phone or give me the info i need in the format i need it" and doing that makes me forget how to run the report
it's cool how i've tried to make a neat video where i casually talk about a thing i care about and broken down either crying or fuming mad twice today and at this point it's impossible to even imagine being in the mood to actually go through with this
it's cool trying to be creative when your creative energy is being completely blown out of the water by either staggering disappointment or frustration or blinding rage every time you think about, anything
it's cool how i might have figured out solutions to some of this if i hadn't spent 85% of my life at a job
it's cool how i've had a headache for 48 consecutive hours
and my skin feels like someone dragged sandpaper ove rit
hey cool, you know what made "copy" work again? saving the project! fucking normal.
also it didn't fucking work. why? because you can't apply motion fx to a hold segment. i don't know how they expect you to work with that, but what the fuck ever.
also it didn't fucking work. why? because you can't apply motion fx to a hold segment. i don't know how they expect you to work with that, but what the fuck ever.
nothing about these programs feels like they were made by anyone who has ever edited a video in their life
Part of this project is doing VOs. how can I record VOs when I feel like this, like there's a huge vise crushing my skull? how could I have avoided this other than by not trying?
how can you get anything done when your tools make you so mad you can't see, and all of your anger is completely justified?
