Thread by @anigeluk

It all started here nearly 18 years ago when I got my first commercial software engineering role for a company that used to be in this building in Banner Street, London. Here I am all those years later, once again looking at this building.

Like many female engineers, along with folks from other under-represented groups of people in tech, I did not feel ready to apply for the role, so I didn’t. Instead, I was working there on the phones doing internet helpdesk when I was approached by the dev manager who had heard

about the online game which three-quarters of the support staff were playing. One that I had co-written with someone else using PHP and was hosting on a colo server we were allowed as a staff perk. A very weighty book was dropped on my desk with the comment that if I could learn

the computer language C then I had a job upstairs on the systems development team.
I’ve no idea at all what they are like to work for now, but over the years, I have seen so many people who started with them end up at top tier internet companies. I won’t pretend that every day

with them was fabulous, and there were times I ended up crying myself to sleep. However, I wouldn’t be where I am now without the opportunity that was given to me by that dev manager all those years ago.
I don’t want to pretend there is some moral to this story or anything but

to anyone from any of the under-represented groups in tech, who are putting off applying for a role because they do not feel ready, please stop putting it off. Some of you are far more ready than the people who are applying, and I’m saying that as someone who is hiring people.

Whatever it is, applying for a job, starting a course or giving a talk, take the chance and do the thing. Whilst there is some possibility you really are not ready yet, you are probably far more ready than you think you are and you could well smash it out of the park.

In truth, I fully understand how difficult it is to do. When I was made redundant from a previous role, I didn't feel I was ready to apply to my current employer despite it being exactly the job I aspired to. I instead applied and worked somewhere else for another 4 years.

When I found myself again looking for a role and despite still not feeling ready I took my own advice and applied anyway. Whilst I have many good memories from those 4 years, where I was working elsewhere, I often wonder how different things could have been if I had applied in

the first place instead of putting it off. So the story does have a very happy ending. Those feelings of not being ready are still there, only now I have the role it shows up as imposter syndrome. I'll let you in on a secret of the tech industry. Many people people suffer with

imposter syndrome but not many will openly admit to it but it is real. I know people who have been in roles 10 years or more who have admitted to me they also suffer it. For some of us, that will never go away. I honestly hope you find yourself doing that thing you aspire to