Thread by @usnehal

My mammoth threads & voluminous tweets are for a few reasons:

1-am an experiential learner
I need try to fit pieces together in new ways

I have had A LOT of experiences in my career and am learning so many things about the system flaws

How does it fit

bu.edu/ctl/guides/exp…

2-I have been deconstructing myself to figure out how to reconstruct myself.

I have had a lot of progress at times and a lot of friction at other times.

Success can be defined in various ways.
Measurable outcomes are more when the human-system/setting-values fit is better.

3-Am learning by reading what other others tweet to assess how that fits into my situation & "self" constructs. What can I learn & how can I apply from it? Whereas some dehumanize & publicly examine others. I publicly examine self. LOL. Maybe is from childhood in/out of hospitals

4- Privacy, autonomy, body autonomy are a mark of privilege. If you find people very focused on preserving their reputations or optics as is common among #AcademicTwitter #medtwitter they are at the highest level of Maslow's as compared to this history
history.com/news/the-fathe…

5-Per last tweet, violates what many ivory tower ppl value for selves - so that is "weird" & "not normal" for that culture that seeks to examine *others* but not self.

My sharing emulates this this vulnerability by @DrOmolara, taking the risk

https://twitter.com/DrOmolara/status/1317550902140686336?s=20

6-Many other reasons but my brain is too fried to come up with anything else

When I first came to #MedTwitter and even now, I been too open like inviting #BlackTwitter folx into "controlled" threads

activating what I now recognize as #BlackintheIvory responses

When you are early to Twitter w/out followers, don't realize how the "mentions" pile up for people with a lot of followers

with ppl's reputation management concerns
unchecked ones cause people anxiety

(When I was being targeted there were @ every 5 min to draw me to respond)

Now that am in grad school leadership classes, realize my threads are exactly what we are doing in our "reflection papers" weekly. In one you literally have a conversation with your "current" vs "emerging" self. I've been doing that on Twitter. Like this: ottoscharmer.com/theoryu

I also am learning that as I go from thinking I knew about discrimination as a Muslim American

to starting to understand the specific legal & systemic nature of why #BLM is necessary

the spaces I used to be more welcome in...now react with fragility vs #BLM terminology & ideas

Even as those space themselves make full display of #BLM yet when those signs are created for optics & reputation management to keep up with trends
rather than authentic, hard, complex, messy culture change
or reallocating resources
is mirage, worse a landmine

This is the wild, Wild West

yet some folks are here with the perception of control, clubs, etc

Everyone has different intentions & expectations
There are the free speech folks
There are the "control things" folks

And the two types often do not get along, not surprisingly

If anyone is wondering, I'm with the super awesome #TikTok pediatrician crowd like these two @DrToddWo & @NicoleB_MD and I tick off (yes that was a pun) the anti-TikTok, anti-fun, anti-smiles, anti-humor, anti-open communication (but pro-gossip) crowd

https://twitter.com/DrToddWo/status/1316135034357796864?s=20

Also, while I did follow the rules, I was pretty ticked off that as CMO I had to enforce the "no bubbles" rules to comply with @TJCommission as it is perceived a fall risk. But come on....

(That said, am not sure about when the injection spot was cleaned)

Being pro-fun and pro-safety simultaneous is really a tough spot to be in on certain things.