Live for what makes you happy, seriously. I see way to many people living the way other people want them to including myself but not anymore. Don't let guilt, self doubt & depression pressure you into handing control of your life to people that just want to change who you are! 
... Stop lying to yourself and just own who you are and what you are and drive towards something you want, not what others want. If you want to be accepted then you need to start by accepting yourself and loving yourself. I've fought a lot of demons this year and this truth rings
... Humans will always judge you no matter who you are or what you do. People will like what you do and people won't like what you do. The biggest problem is when they start to get you to believe it yourself and you become your own worse enemy. You're an expert at being you!
... If you want to lose weight it will happen when you're ready to lose weight. If you want to get super strong and flip over dump trucks it's going to happen if that's what you really want. But you need to clear the doubt out of your head and love yourself first. Honestly!
... Don't let shame drive you either, if you are ashamed of yourself you are your own worst enemy. Shame is a learned thing, it's not an instinct. Remember that, if you're ashamed of something it's because people have made you feel that way. Kick them the fuck out of your brain.
... Talk to yourself nicely, give yourself the same respect you give others that you look up to. Don't let your inner monologue tell you that you're a piece of shit or echo anger coming from other people. Literally tell yourself that you're awesome. Tell yourself that you love U!
... This is all stuff I've learned in the last week that has literally changed my life, changed my cronic pain levels, changed my sleep quality and best of all changed my depression and anxiety levels. I'm not fixed but I don't need to be fixed. The point is to be nice to myself.
... I love you all and know you struggle with your own demons but you need to forgive yourself no matter what it is and accept yourself for who you are and understand that you do what you want to do because you want to do it and stop making excuses and just own it.
... We lie to yourselves more then any other person we encounter in our lives. It gets so bad that we start to believe the lies. But, if you just be honest with yourself you will start to realize that you will find a happy person imprisoned waiting to get out and play.
... You also need to realize you never need to be fixed, you don't have to be skinny, you don't have to be a millionaire, stop aiming for the future and live for today. Be what you want to be TODAY and tomorrow may or might not come and you can live for tomorrow tomorrow.
... This us the longest chain of tweets I've ever made to the best of my knowledge and I'm proud to be sitting here typing this right now because if you go back through my feed I've had some seriously dark times. The thing that changed is how I view and talk to myself internally.
... And I want to share this gift with you guys and tell you the profound things that changed my outlook and took me from someone who was completely defeated, depressed and suicidal to someone that is happy to be alive and loves himself. I want to see you guys do the same!
... I love you all, including the trolls, I have been given a unique opportunity to see the human condition in a clear light that makes sense to me. I now understand why I judge people, I understand why I hated myself, I understand that I'm my worst troll. It's 100% true.
... Now that I know how to treat myself the mountains have turned back into molehills. My anxiety and fear of the future has faded to curiosity. But my happiness with me being me right now is off the charts. Yeah, I'm still fat, my back still hurts, I still have gout. But...
The difference is I don't make excuses internally to myself as to life being unfair, or not being able to continue when I'm in pain, etc. I don't blame other people anymore for putting me here (including Microsoft). I don't even blame myself because where I'm at makes me, ME!
... So go fourth my friends (yeah you) and lock yourself in the bathroom, look in the mirror and have a long very real and very honest conversation with yourself (I did this). Don't pull any punches and have a good cry. I guarantee you will feel better afterwards & start healing.
