2) default settings are useless; i need 450 hours of experience to customize this to something i can use
- i am not willing to burn weeks of my life making a complete game
- i am not willing to make an incomplete game at all
i wish someone had told me "hey making a videogame of the sort you imagine requires you to work on it every single night for two weeks and to come up with ideas the entire time." I can't do any of that, and I don't want to.
i feel a little lied to, you know? like, why didn't anyone ever tell me what the reality of this was, the scale of it, the number of things I'd have to learn to do *simultaneously* so I wouldn't *try*?