Let me share some of my thoughts on this. Remember that for thoughts to automatically regulate behavior, they must be reinforced by meditation and deliberate inculcation.
Still learning, but I sense bliss.
Crisis is how this fact makes itself apparent.
The pulling and shoving and rocking should be seen as how things try to achieve maturity.
Nothing I want is superior to the me that wants it, and so all my actions to obtain it should preserve my ability to enjoy it once it's here.