in fact I've got a shit ton of feelings about Being A Musician that I should probably work on sorting out
part of why my stuff is so noisy is that it masks my mistakes, lets me build on them. I don't know how obvious that fact is
but another part of me thinks I'm just childishly pounding on a keyboard and it's no wonder most people can't stand it
not because I need money to justify making art, just... I need to make money SOMEHOW, and I don't have any better ideas