Today I had to write a little about Spain, and bleary-eyed, typing away, I longed - ACHED - to be there. Then again, most days I long to be somewhere else. This thought did not escape me. I then pondered how tired and run-down I felt...
I've always struggled with tiredness and exhaustion, but, paradoxically, I find that I've always managed it best when I'm on the move - travelling, writing stuff down, taking and editing pictures, SEEING THINGS. It's when I feel most alive and in touch with the world...
It's not just a travel bug, it's an integral part of who I am. I have the realization that perhaps office jobs aren't where I am supposed to be. If I only have one shot at this, I really should be finding a way to make telling stories about the world, and history, my job...
Instead, I've spent far too long trying to fit in with what I should be doing and feeling . This has made me quite ill at times with depression and anxiety. It certainly has led to a rough few years. Now, this is not supposed to be a 'poor me' thread...
I know that making a living out of being a storyteller and a traveler is very difficult, and requires a hell of a lot of work. But perhaps that work, and the journey it leads me on, is what I need to stop feeling so damn sick and tired all the time?
I don't know how to go about it, and I guess I'll be learning on the way, but it's time to be serious about my writing and what I have to offer. I've said that all the Twitter stuff is just a lark, but really, I should be taking it dead serious...
So, I'm going to be thinking long and hard about this, and doing what I can to become the storyteller and explorer I've always dreamed of being. i still have to have a day job, but it's time work towards making my passion my dream job...
Thanks for listening to me ramble about this. I felt that it was important to write down. That way, I have something that I can reread when I'm dealing with obstacles. If you like what I do, thank you for your support. I hope to bring yo some wonderful stories. FIN.
PS. This does not mean I am going to become an awful Instagram trashdouche, never fear.
