Thread by @owenbroadcast

weird part of maturing no one talks about: when ur in kid mindset people do things + u think “well, i guess thats just how it is” but later when u cross into adult mindset u realize that actually u would never do that and a lot of those people around u were just bad or messed up

i think this is why a lot of people never take on the mantle of adulthood. it requires you to go back and sift through your life and realize that lots of things didnt “just happen” and you have to assign blame to specific people, as you take on responsibility for your own life

theres this mormon thing where people of a certain age get “the priesthood” conferred unto them and basically are empowered to act in a certain way, its like you get the ability to act in the name of god (thats just what i heard might not be accurate)

im not mormon but i think about this concept sometimes because i feel like there is a power “to act” and to think of ones self as a cohesive and autonomous unit that i can instantly tell if someone has or not. sometimes i meet guys my age and its like theyre still 13 or something

conversely sometimes ill meet people + i can instantly tell that they have this, and that they function and act in a way that is integrated with their surroundings and that they take responsibility for their actions. maybe its because i didnt have this for a long time? cant tell

i see this a lot in other peoples relationship problems (if i know the people) where the woman asks “why doesnt my bf do this, i have to ask him to do this etc”, and in my head im just like, its because he doesnt have this, he isnt “switched on”, however you want to describe it

conversely i think that once you “get this” the lack of responsibility in other men starts to bother you in a deeper way. i knew this guy that abandoned his kids to his ex-wife for no reason and it just made me so sick, i couldnt even think about hanging out with him anymore

dont know what to call this but its really like a light switch is turned on or off on people. it has to do with selfishness and a cohesive worldview but doesnt line up perfectly to one other quality or attribute, yet its so obvious when its there or not. what is this called 🧐

friend is into something called human design (its like cracked out astrology, not my thing) and there is a term they use in it that is “self projected authority”, i feel like that is a good term for what im describing. an authority that is internally generated, not from others