It takes a very, very long time to truly become yourself.
I heard this somewhere... I think from @DaveChappelle or Miles Davis, I'm not sure. But it stayed with me, and I have thought about it a lot.
[Sometimes, the weariness of it all makes me feel like I've lived a hundred years].
Others with their hubris and egos that ultimately led to their downfall.
And for the first time, I was proud of who I was.
I think it was the intentionality of learning from the past. The deep reflection on what went wrong, what could have been done better and what definitely needed to go.
"BUT WHY?", the emptiness asked.
I wanted money so I could pay fees for someone or help someone else start a business or build a school or hospital for a community.
It is a weakness that I have a love-hate relationship with.
My journey has morphed from the pursuit of just money, to the pursuit of a better world for our children and their children's children.
Fear will always be with us. Humanity is flawed, and the world is chaos.
So, my biggest challenge to myself is to go extreme, to step so far outside my comfort zone that the mere thought of the thing I want to do still sends panic down my spine. But, here we go:
I, Solomon King, introvert, hater-of-photos, refuser-of-interviews, selfie-snob, stammerer and God-knows-what else... am starting a YouTube Channel.
I know all you extroverts are rolling your eyes, but just typing this is giving me anxiety. 🤣
You can subscribe here youtube.com/c/SolomonKing
Right now, there's nothing there, just a few random audio tracks I made last year.
Like talking to your father when he's had too much whiskey.
Generally, the side of life that people gloss over or hide in their attempts to paint perfect lives of unceasing success.
We'll talk to people like you are I who are thriving, hustling, or figuring out what went wrong.
Basically, "omuntu wa wansi" trying to make the world better.
Maybe, in my own way, I can use my network, connections and experiences to help people out there discover their true selves and finally become who are meant to be.
If not, we shall fail together.
Onwards and upwards!