- Nobody can make you hit her/him.
- Nobody can make you curse and rant.
Your nasty reactions are 100% your fault.
Many people experienced similar stimuli without going crazy.
OWN IT; then change YOUR reactions.
Most introverts are NOT jerks.
You're a jerk because you are jerk.
Don't blame it on nature or nurture.
Just stop.
You're the captain of your own ship.
We control most of our actions and reactions so its disingenuous to externalize the blame for our actions, "my girlfriend made me do it."
No, she didn't.
You did it. Own it, apologize, and move on.