Some outcomes are for best. I considered 2 jobs in CT in recent years. (As a kid, lived in Cheshire & Branford)

Got one offer. Other, hiring manager wanted to hire me but person to sign off heard I was “activist” so passed on my candidacy. Maybe cuz:

juberoad.com/cheshire-and-t…
We had a lovely house in Cheshire w/ a big yard & fireplace, right near my school

the realtor told us that it had been suddenly put on the market because a black family had moved in next-door

I bet when we also moved there it was seen as a negative?

I made friends quickly
My sis, in high school, had it rough. Really rough. Girl groups make up bizarro rules to police belonging.

My sister actually saved me from stuff I did not even know she had saved me from - like the girly girl dress in the last tweet? Mom’s choice.

I also have a puppy-like optimism where I just assume everybody likes me & everything I say unless it hits me in the face. I have next to no social anxiety & almost dangerous lack of paranoia. So I bet more happened around me than I noticed or realized.

I had NO idea about this. Then again, why would I? We lived in CT only two years. Apparently CT prefers to hide their history & the only conversation on race, per this article, has to go thru white gatekeepers for their comfort

Stuff happened in those 2 years. This fits:
New England acts holier than thou on many things. Cheshire, CT used to have slaves? Woah.

connecticuthistory.org/early-anti-sla…
We’d moved 4x in one year
Oil prices fell: returned to U.S
Sis got into med school: moved to East Coast
Rental then bought house.

Always had housing, food, clean clothes, stellar grades. Cheshire school counselor wanted my parents “assessed” for the 4 moves

No valid criterion
My teacher shared that, with the laugh, when she placed me in Gifted & Talented as a “can you believe...” (how much the counselor had misjudged)

No laughing matter they almost criminalized my parents

what if my mother had been black & not South Asian, speaking Queens English?
Apparently my getting into Gifted & Talented caused resentment. Recall I was exuberantly putting glue on my artwork in regular class. A boy ridiculed me: why was I in Gifted & Talented if so messy? It felt like something he had heard at home. I became VERY neat with glue after.
Looking back much white supremacy/racism “lite” in Cheshire, CT - ppl not wanting black neighbors, assuming negative things with zero basis of a Muslim ethnic family, white parents resenting my being in Gifted & Talented (spot/space I took in school). Now: patch.com/connecticut/ch…
Feels like a repeating loop, tho, in healthcare, career. Some puerile boy-men find petty things to bully & ridicule, whether women own age or accomplished mid-career ones. Mean girls. Cliques. Implicit bias or overt racism. Do ppl ever grow up?

journalofethics.ama-assn.org/article/bully-…
“Student mistreatment ...stem from the teacher-learner power differential inherent in the hierarchy of medical education, which leads to a ‘cycle of abuse’ in which medical students who are mistreated go on to become doctors who mistreat other medical students”
Maybe it’s because I’m in pediatrics with more women or smiling, happy, well adjusted (short) men who wear Elmo ties... but I was really blindsided by how much resentment there is towards successful women, WOC, including in medicine & spaces we occupy madamenoire.com/1129461/signs-…
I debate a lot w/ @DrvanTilburg in this topic, not cuz we actually disagree much. Trying to challenge my own thinking to crack this nut. I keep experimenting with & tweaking my leadership style. How to acknowledge women embattled yet be hold accountable?

cosmopolitan.com/career/advice/…
ALL of this

it feels like so much of my energy

goes towards managing reactions, emotions people have about me or towards me - non-factual emotionally driven assumptions, biases

Add my being a minority, Muslim - what are their feelings about @AOC for instance?

Vs actual work
When men say they are afraid to mentor women, what they are saying is all this emotional labor that has been borne by women should continue to be one sided.

Yes, all this considering and assessing is exhausting. Share the load.

nytimes.com/2019/01/29/us/…

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@FBI - I have been marked as a target by alt right already - my #GOTV work is what #MarjorieTaylorGreene spreads hate on - citizen rights of minorities. The violence that smashed the skull of #OfficerSicknick on Jan 6 was about effective #votingrights work of @staceyabrams ImageImageImageImage
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What I threaten is the power differential in #healthcare -by my identity & work - all bullying is about power first & foremost. Yes, I threaten bullies & their sidekicks. I open, expand, include vs paranoia to exclude, block.

Other Muslims like me, shot: dailytarheel.com/article/2020/0…
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Important to keep in mind that #AI is made by humans. Our flaws and biases get encoded and amplified. We need the right diversity of people at the table to design and implement #ArtificialIntelliegence and #ML. #humancentereddesign for all of humanity. #design
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Example: many people are interested in #SDoH #socialdeterminantsofhealth & #data for it.
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Banks
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So can their data improve health equity?

reuters.com/article/us-usa…
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Not only experience, which is important, but clinical #research does not parse out the Japanese man or woman from the South Asian man or woman on heart disease risk, epidemiology, treatment.

#EBM lacking for us then

#MedTwitter #AcademicTwitter #AcademicChatter
And then there is the question of who is white.

Iranian/Persian & Arabs are white on census.
Does the rest of America agree?

Racists & xenophobes tend to use loophole to say being anti-Muslim (whom they consider to all be Arab) is “not racist.”

latimes.com/projects/la-me…
Proving again: race is a social construct

Not until 2020 Persians really started to call selves “POC” (for self protection)

Have lots of Persian friends
Urdu culture has Farsi roots

But let’s be honest: Persians have seen selves as superior race, apart

wbez.org/stories/renewe…
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Oooooh.

Yes, riling up Scotsmen & women, expecting them to back down, from a fight seems
SO logical
SO aligned with Scottish history & spirit

*makes popcorn*

Between this & trending #seashantytok what is not to love about our kilt wearing neighbors across the Atlantic?
On the #seashantytok #Seashantytiktok in case you were not up to speed

I would like to point out I was already following him & had watched all his videos, long before he got the 7 million views, record deal, or noticed by Kermit or Andrew Lloyd Webber

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Also, if you notice a pattern of certain women who are very concerned about “cancel culture”, these are often women whose income, power, position comes from those men who avoid/fear accountability.
There is no reason to be afraid of women if one already was doing the right thing. Have good ethics yourself and have a good radar for that yourself. I have NEVER had problems with male mentors as we align on values/mission first. We work through trust.

hbr.org/2019/03/advice…
If you are playing a dirty game or don’t have standards to who you hire, do business with, etc (or no standards to own behavior), yeah, I get why you are paranoid.

Drain your own swamp then.
Not all women are pawns in a man’s game like:

apnews.com/article/donald…
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Those of us who affirmed our own agency and power by learning from and with our moms. My mom’s stories are her own but she and I together have unpacked many cultural myths to learn better self compassion, willingness to identify racism, less perfectionism.
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This is a type of trauma many WOC/POC experience. My mom’s hair is extremely thick, textured. I recall her being very fixated on making sure her own hair & our hair was always incredibly neat.

More recently I’ve come to understand this matches an experience of having black hair.
The so-called “model minority “is taught to align with white culture, to suppress oneself in order to layer under & serve white supremacy.

I have worked to remove internalized racism, colorism, self hate & learned from #blackexcellence on:

chalkbeat.org/2020/1/16/2112…
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