One last essential clarification, re. my previous thread, in which I am going to tell you something about myself that nobody is strictly entitled to know. But engaging with me on that subject was hard for many people for many reasons-- (1 of OH GOD HE'S DOING IT AGAIN)
And I'm going to try to meet that hard work with further transparency on my own part. Here goes:
Nothing I wrote disclaimed the possibility of hiring readers for any purpose to do analysis of any or all of the manuscript. (2 of a molehill)
Nothing I wrote disclaimed the possibility of hiring readers for any purpose to do analysis of any or all of the manuscript. (2 of a molehill)
Nobody is reading scenes from TTOE out of context right now because nobody is reading scenes from TTOE right now, period.
This is the anxiety condition I have referenced in public discussion of my depression and anxiety. This is its specific manifestation. (3 of an exposition)
This is the anxiety condition I have referenced in public discussion of my depression and anxiety. This is its specific manifestation. (3 of an exposition)
This is why my output is so frustratingly intermittent. I don't experience writer's block, I experience panic attacks like iron bands around my chest, with blood pressure surges I can feel in my fingertips and hear in my skull. (4 of a limited edition collector's set of pixels)
I experience this when attempting to show my work to others, or when people enter the essential bubble of personal space behind my desk. You can imagine that this is a really stupid fucking thing for a professional writer to have. (5 of a twittering)
I would concur. This didn't happen before 2009. It is an exciting notation on my character sheet and I wonder what the GM gave me in exchange. Anyhow, this is why my process is... idiosyncratic. (6 of a smattering)
This is a fun medical condition that puts me on the floor. You should have seen my exhausted hysterics when I managed to hand TROT in in 2013. For context, I never once experienced remotely commensurate anxiety in any aspect of firefighting. Or anything else. Ever. (7 of a flock)
NONE of this is to chastise ANYONE with a "You should have known!" because, um, you did not in fact have any reasonable expectation of knowing. But let that clarification be added to the aggregation. Now you know a little bit more. (8 of an aggregation)
Lastly, seriously: I am in therapy, and it's actually going really well. Some stuff has been handed in recently, and the anxiety response was diminished. I have had immense good fortune with all of my mental health care providers since 2010. They have saved my life. (9 of a bevy)
I say this respectfully but absolutely: I do not want medical advice. I do not want drug recommendations. I have a plan in my private life. I appreciate good intentions but I will decline to respond favorably to unsolicited diagnosis, prescriptions, etc. Thank you. (10/10!)
