i fucking hate android. i want to make an android app but it's FUCKING impossible.
i have an API interface that can produce jpeg urls and a Glide that can ingest them and a recyclerview and THIS IS ALL THE TUTORIAL SAYS 
sure just
write my adapter. WHATEVER. just WRITE it. NO BIG DEAL RIGHT?
SURE I'LL JUST WRITE THIS
write my adapter. WHATEVER. just WRITE it. NO BIG DEAL RIGHT?
SURE I'LL JUST WRITE THIS
I DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHAT ANY OF THIS IS. i am COMPLETELY defeated, and that's FUCKING stupid because the project at hand WOULD BE EASY IN ANY OTHER LANGUAGE
all i FUCKING needed to do was populate an array of image objects and then hand it off to a thing that draws a grid. THAT'S FUCKING IT, but i have NO IDEA HOW TO DO THAT IN THIS STUPID, STUPID FUCKING LANGUAGE MADE BY SHITHEADS
if this was python i'd be okay right now. if this was C I'd be fine right now. if this was JS I'd be fine right now. if this was in a language or environment not made by disconnected jackoffs with no idea how the real world fucking works, my program would be working
180k a year fuckheads just decided i'm not allowed to write programs in this because i don't have the money to take six months off and go to Milan and put my macbook on the wrought iron table in the little cafe and not worry about paying rent because daddy has me covered
i don't have time to just quit my job and sit at home and stare at this codebase until my ADHD fucking evaporates so i just don't get to do this, i don't get to participate in the Mobile Era, great, thanks, fuck you, i hope you all drown
god forbid this computer work at all like any other computer made in the last 60 years. no, everything has to start out at enterprise-grade. everything has to be Scalable even if you just want one fucking text box on the screen, fuck you, eat shit, die
i'm fucking sick of nerds making me play in Twitter's "we can't do anything without spinning up 20,0000 nodes :)" sandbox just LET ME FUCKING WRITE A PROGRAM THAT'S JUST FOR FUCKING ME
fuck you. go fuck yourself. fuck you and your zero comments. NONE OF THE FUCKING JAVA CODE I LOOK AT HAS A SINGLE FUCKING COMMENT. this is gibberish. this doesn't do anything. NONE OF THESE LINES DO ANYTHING
all this fucking dick polishing. none of this shit happens in python. i understand EVERYTHING i'm doing in python. fuck this shit. fuck this bullshit fuck everyone associated with it fuck this ecosystem fuck this platform i hope mobile fucking dies
when you are like me you cannot accept that your inability to do something is someone elses fault, because someone other than you can do it so it must be your fault
there are fuckheads, absolute headass fuckheads in every single state and country who can make an android app from beginning to end. and i can't, and i'm never going to be able to. this community hates me and loves their own dicks. they don't comment their fucking code
they don't comment their code so i can't understand it. their code is 900 lines for every 10 i would write in python, so i can't understand it. and so i just don't get to do this, while some idiot in new york who voted for hilary for all the wrong reasons churns it out daily
i don't get to do this while Centrist Todd does. i know so much more about the world than he does. i know that most things we call 'wood' are mostly urea formaldehyde resin. i know how to use a lathe. i know why the cops can't be trusted. and i can't do what he does every day
and it fucking kills me that he has a leg up on me, any leg up, and that's my fault, and i don't want to get better. i want to stay angry. i want to be angry until i die that some oblivious shithead can do things that i can't on a machine i spent my life on
i don't care how much you hate joel spolsky, he was right. most of us - yes, I'm using the Marginalized Class tone, eat shit - are too stupid to understand any of this. our brains can't hold it. we need help. we fucking need your help you fucking 200k a year assholes
if you could peel off one tiny sliver of your day - yes, i know your hours are worth $65, so sorry - to write some instructions for the idiots who can't work your overwrought horseshit i would be so, so pleased, oh i'm sorry am i intruding on your ivory tower and job security
sorry to bother you. carry on, i'll just go get a job on the docks, oops, i'm a fat nerd who thought he could hack it on a computer, guess i rolled wrong and society has no place for me
if i hadn't sat on a computer and gained those 130 pounds for ten years thinking this might someday have some value to someone maybe i'd have other choices. if i'd gone to school. et cetera. turns out everyone lied to me when they said i could do this
i can't do this and every time i try i just get reminded that i'm not one of the chosen ones. if only i'd known that when i was 17.
i wish someone had told me computers weren't for me. i wish it hadn't been on the list of options, because in 2005 if your list contained "computers" it was 95pt larger text than anything else
i wasn't given a choice. all of society told me Computers was the right thing to do. who was i to say no. if society had told me to go be a machinist or some shit i would be doing work that mattered and i would have skills that mattered right now
my skills petered out in 2007. i don't understand django. i don't understand webapps, i don't get how they work. i don't understand models and views, apparently. i try, but i have to break the abstraction constantly because it's too much
i don't understand 3/4 of the shit in C#. i will never understand what a delegate is. it's just like my math skills. i stopped pre-algebra. i'm less capable than most teenage high school graduates.
i don't know what the fuck a recyclerview adapter is. and python is for shitheads like me. people who don't know what the fuck an Interface is, or what <String> means, or why we would extend instead of implementing a class, or what the FUCK an 'abstract' is
python is for idiots. i'm an idiot. i'm happy when i use python. it's fisher price programming for little children and i should just stay at my level where i'm happy
if capitalism didn't rule our lives i could ask someone for help. because i need more than just a few questions, i need a tutor. i need someone to sit with me on a screenshare or in person for three hours and carefully explain, over and over and over, what i'm doing
nobody has the time for that. nobody can ask a friend for that. it just doesn't *work*. everyone's tried. your friends have offered to teach you things, and you never took them up on it because it doesn't FEEL right. it feels like it'll wreck your relationship
so the only way to learn is to get a job by lying your way into it and then ask your coworkers for help. that's the only situation where you're emotinoally divorced enough that you feel okay asking for that level of hand holding
what a fucked up, broken society. i wouldn't feel bad asking a friend for help and they wouldn't feel bad giving it except oops we have to syncrhonize and they work until 7 and together we only have a single overlapping free hour and why the fuck do i deserve it
they have relatioships, they have videogames and movies, they hafve a life to attend to. nobody has time to sit and train me. why would they. they have their own shit to worry about
i could go to school but it would take 9 months to hit something i didn't know, and then i'd be floundering and flunk out because schools aren't built for me. ther's nothing built for me. there's nothing for me but just running at the problem on my own, by myself, alone
there are plenty of good java books. that's not how i learn. i learn by doing, and when that fails i learn when a human sits next to me and patiently explains the same thing nine times and then reviews my work as i do it
who cares about school. school ends. RecyclerAdapters still exist, and no teacher is paid to tell me how those work.
