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had an interesting set of dreams. gonna describe all this out of order. i went to this Orthodox Church and met a bunch of really cool young (people my age) there, and we talked all about life and why they were there (ive never been to an Orthodox Church).
one of the guys, who was married, was talking how his other friends there, a couple, need to get married and how we should pray about it. they were all really amped that my gf and i were there and were interested in going there. it was a really wholesome positive warm vibe.
i had been talking to some guy my age about joining the church, i guess he was like a ... novice, official of some kind in the church, like clergy in training or something. the guy pressuring his friend turns to me and asks what i thought of the man i was speaking with.
i said i thought he was really cool, and the guy gets kind of serious but still friends and is like “you must never lie to him”. i was like “...yeah man, of course”. kind of struck me as odd. i was thinking, yeah of course.. why would i?
i had been talking with this novice clergy guy about getting into the church (prior to this) and he told me everyone has to volunteer in the church during this process. i said i was down, and he told me that what they really needed was for someone to do something very specific:
actually it was kind of weird because it wasnt like they needed anyone, the vibe was that they had all talked about it and determined that this would be a good job for me. he explained that in the school part of the church the children keep spiders and some venomous animals.
and they needed someone to move these animals into other tanks every now and then so they could clean the tanks. he told me it was dangerous and that i could get bitten. i was kind of weirded out by this, i didnt say yes or no, i told him id think about it.
i told him, honestly man im pretty clumsy + wouldnt want to mess it up + get bitten. fitting with the later part of my dream, this is not a lie exactly but it almost is. im not excessively clumsy, i do art that requires precision, but I do drop stuff sometimes, as much as anyone
i was mostly thinking “wow what... i don’t want to like.. die doing this, arent there any normal jobs?” but i didnt say no, i told them id get back to them. he kind of made it seem like they really need someone to do it and that they talked and felt id be perfect for it.
he also showed me these big tong things id be using to move these big kind of weird plants around, they were like big bak choys but more foresty looking, kind of like little “normal” plants but like nothing i have ever seen before.
later in the dream i was running with a whole group from the church. we were like running in a fun way through a rainy forest. it was day and there was this path and there were kids and adults all just having a good time running along in a playful way.
it was super muddy and i was using my bare feet to bring mud up onto the rocks that were lining the path, like I was going off the path to leave muddy footprints on these big rocks. someone says to me that i shouldn’t do that, i should just enjoy how the rainy forest looks [...]
because its only going to look that way for so long. i kind of agreed with them and was like “yeah what am i doing...” and stopped doing it. anyway won’t journal the whole thing here but the other part was me at a taco bell gas station with my girlfriend, lol, its relevant. [...]
and my family had like, failed to come through and help us (I think?) so she asked this random woman for help. i was weirded out by how she let this person in our van but the woman turned out to be orthodox and we had a whole talk about my past and history.
these 2 dreams werent connected while i was dreaming. oddly enough i wasnt thinking about orthodoxy at all yesterday, but i did kind of pray before falling asleep (just thought about god + a specific part of the bible) which is normally when i have these seemingly symbolic dreams
for anyone thinking i should do the obvious thing here, the nearest orthodox church is very far away, too far for me to regularly go to. 🤔
to make this more interesting i am actually in the process of looking for a church with gf. dont want to make this a battle between different “denominations” but im trying almost everything around me, tried some churches but so far they were kind of, not enticing honestly.
also yeah just to be clear the church in my dream just “happened” to be orthodox (i guess, if u want to say it that way). i am basically keeping all my options open in this department and havent “chosen” anything yet. im basically investigating my options in terms of a church irl
yes. tbh im stuck on this paradox. dont want to go around with some arrogant attitude looking for a church thats [perfect] for [me] but at the same time a church near me literally had a drag show, + one had this indian priest i could barely understand..
