Thread by @Kirbopher

Hello, everyone.

I apologize for my silence this past week. I have begun the next step on my journey to change for the better; to finally become a good person.

I've returned to seeing my therapist and will continue to on a more-prominent basis than ever. I will be looking into anger management as a separate mental health service. I have also, for the first time, been diagnosed by a psychiatrist and am currently taking medication.

These are just a few of the actions I’m taking in order to instill these changes into myself. All of these things are merely parts of my ultimate goal to achieve real, noticeable self-improvement.

This is still only the beginning. The changes I'm aiming to make within myself from a foundational level will take years; maybe even the rest of my life. I am willing to do whatever it takes to do so; not simply for my own sake, but for all of the people who I love.

I am massively egocentric. I constantly let my emotions run wild into uncontrollable anger. I obsess over the approval of others. I have pushed countless people away and hurt so many people I’ve cared about because of all these things and more.

In particular, my treatment of women needs to change most of all. It’s one thing that I’ve hurt so many friends, but even worse that my behavior has instilled lasting damage in people who I claimed to love. This is unacceptable and needs to stop.

I am continuing to get to the core of these toxic qualities I have let define me, so that they can be stamped out. I’m determined to come out of this journey a completely different human being, one who can be a positive influence on others. That is all I could ever hope to be.

To the people I have wronged in every conceivable way, I have heard you all. Thank you for sharing your honest thoughts and feelings about your experiences with me. You're all correct, apologies are not enough. The actual changes I need to make in retribution are what matter.

To those who have chosen to believe in me, I appreciate all of your support. However, I ask that you please do not combat against those who have expressed their negative thoughts towards me. Listen to their stories and make fair, objective judgements.

I am going to be stepping back from much of my social media presence in order to focus as much as humanly possible on my self-improvement. I will primarily be using this space to post about my progress and the steps I’m continuing to take. I hope this will be acceptable.

I also understand full well and do not blame anyone for viewing what I’m sharing here as some sort of damage control or PR stunt. I have crushed many peoples' faith in me and this is a consequence I accept.

I've hurt, mistreated, stepped on, alienated, abused, betrayed, and let down so many people. Changing myself for the better is something I should have done years and years ago. It may be far too late, but I know what I must do.

I hope you all have a great weekend.

Thank you for reading.