Still processing that today I reassured my daughter with the words “we’ll either die together or survive together.”
Current mood: Double Bulleit 
A few people have said “I can’t imagine what went through your mind.” So here’s what we did and what I thought in no particular order. (A thread)
I am hard of hearing so I woke up to being tapped by my wife who shoved my daughters phone in my face with the alert of an incoming ballistic missle.
I lept out of bed, disoriented and looking for clothes. I threw on a shirt and shorts as we yelled at the kids to get dressed.
I texted a screenshot of the alert and an “I love you” to my girlfriend. I tweeted “fuck”
I threw our phones into my backpack. I thought maybe the resort would have a basement or shelter of some sort.
My daughter is melting down. Crying “I don’t want to die” over and over. I held her and tried to reassure her.
We left our room and took the stairs to the lobby. After a minute or two an employee announced that we should return to our room and shelter in place.
We hurried back to the room and started preparing the bathroom to be our bunker.
I’ve studied nuclear blast charts and the potential targets on Oahu are the military base and Honolulu both of which are far enough away that I figured we’d survive the initial nuclear blast.
I also knew that we’d be close enough that it was unlikely we’d survive the radiation.
I also knew that we’d be close enough that it was unlikely we’d survive the radiation.
I had visions of holding my kids as they vomited from radiation poisoning.
We have our friend’s daughter with us. I debated whether I should message them. I decided to wait. I had no information for them.
Then I got a notification from Jo.
I told the family everything was ok. It took a few minutes to register. My daughter took another 20-30 minutes to calm down.
I’ve heard people talk about a sense of calm that they feel when death is imminent. Today I felt that. I knew that I couldn’t control what was about to happen. I would hold my family and die. I didn’t have any sense of regret or fear in that moment.
