Clearing through my flat, I’m feeling reflective and feel the urge to tweet about my Dad.
I need to talk about my Dad, and finding Happiness.
Then they found each other & married.
I wasn’t like my brother. He was fearless & football mad. I was fretful & football frightened me.
“Ah sher, I’ll peel, you’ve done it the last two nights.”
We ate together every night whilst watching Crossroads.
I wasn’t.
I felt deeply ashamed for letting Dad down.
I wanted him to feel the pride in me that his brother’s were feeling for their sons. But Dad wasn’t bothered, “Come on son, Crossroads on.”
“Yes.”
He flicked through the pages again, looked at me, “They’re fucking brilliant!”
He looked again, “I didn’t know you could draw like this.” When he looked at me the 3rd time, I’m sure I saw pride in his eyes.
“Build a house Dad, your house.”
And he did.
He knew he was dying.
I was in denial – we hadn’t been given a diagnosis for his illness, so I held onto tight delusional hope.
They were his last words to me.