And then an educator I didn't recognize or speak to previously came.
"I need to tell you something after your keynote," she said, "and don't get offended."
Those words instantly made me lock up. Like. They never mean anything good as a woman of color.
That was the main active choice I made. I was instantly sure I didn't need to apologize.
But let me tell you about my keynote.
She looked at me for a moment and did not respond.
Whether or not she enjoyed my own contributions to my keynote was unsaid.
Part of why I mentioned the representation in my keynote is because that lends to my reluctance in reading them.
She repeated, "You should make time and read them," said a quick and tight-sounding thanks and ran.
AND THIS REMINDS ME THAT I FORGOT A KEY DETAIL.
That was the moment, when I thought back and tried to calm myself down, that I got angry.
And it didn't. It made me angry. And my anger only fuels me.
I have no name or school. I did mention her to an organizer who was apologetic and perplexed.
She too thought it was bizarre.