Why I want to leave the Fear of Missing Out—an inherent fear from being disabled— behind in 2019.
Kids in school will always think twice about inviting you along
They’ll justify this by saying they want you to hear it because it’ll almost feel like you’re there. That’s the same, right? (It’s not.)
And, these kids and teens will become adults who will continue these behaviors, but will become more cunning at their
Eventually, this will all peter out as they cease to invite you altogether
But, you will always be aware that life is happening without you, moments that you’re supposed to be a part of or milestones that you’re supposed to have reached by now if it were not for the
It’s why dating, or inviting any person into your life willingly, can be so nerve wracking and triggering.
Either you’re dealing with someone who is seemingly showing no interest in you and jettisoning you back to those moments you were left out, or
The fear of missing out rules my life and at times dictates my behaviors. I can find myself anxious and waiting to be included rather than living my life regardless.
Next year, I want to work on this part of me that always feels like I’m losing out on a life
I have no choice in the way my body decides to behave from day to day, and increasingly, I’m realizing I can’t force people to care about accessibility or inclusion in a capitalist society