1) TEARCATCHER
Journal: I was thinking about the way I look today for a long time, maybe too long. I was out and about by the pond in the park. I was thinking about how people perceive me, how people see me.
Journal: I was thinking about the way I look today for a long time, maybe too long. I was out and about by the pond in the park. I was thinking about how people perceive me, how people see me.
2) I know that they use their eyeballs to see me, but I thought today I’d take the question a bit further, a bit deeper.
I thought I’d just take a while and think about what more is there past the eyeball and eyeball socket and stuff.
I thought I’d just take a while and think about what more is there past the eyeball and eyeball socket and stuff.
3) What do people really see when they look at me with their eyeballs resting in their eye sockets?Do they see the real me? The pretty one; Vincent, the pretty one?
4) Or do they see something not so pretty, something awful and ugly, something so raw and unappealing that they need to turn away and seek refuge?
5) While I was in thought, deep thought about this a tear rolled down my face… then another tear, and then another and then more. I took out my tear catcher and caught them all.
6) I love catching my tears, it’s loads of fun. I put the cap on my tear catcher and then put it in my pocket. Back where it belongs. Out of the way.
The question still looming in my brain, the brain inside my head. You know?
The question still looming in my brain, the brain inside my head. You know?
7) What is it people see when they look at the pretty one?
I realize that I have no control over what they see, although that makes me angry. I think forcing everyone to see me or to tell me how they see me is possible but could take a lot of time.
I realize that I have no control over what they see, although that makes me angry. I think forcing everyone to see me or to tell me how they see me is possible but could take a lot of time.
8) I would also have to figure out how to get past the eyeballs and the eye sockets.
I decided that I really don’t have the time to be angry and forceful for that long.
I decided that I really don’t have the time to be angry and forceful for that long.
9) I’m happy with the most likely scenario which coincidentally makes me very happy and less angry. Vincent, the pretty one.
After I decided to move on with my thoughts, I bowed to the ducks at the pond and acknowledged how they could see the pretty me.
After I decided to move on with my thoughts, I bowed to the ducks at the pond and acknowledged how they could see the pretty me.
10) The birds in the trees can see the pretty me too. I walked home swiftly. I didn’t want my tears to evaporate. I collect my tears in the freezer. I collect my little tear cubes. I have hundreds.
