Thread by @MathounetS

Late night (depressing) thoughts : a thread.

I am not good enough, probably never will be. I'm 19 year old and I know I'm still young but, I haven't accomplished anything. The real question is: Will I ever accomplish something ?

I've got 2 main fears. 1) Being rejected 2) Dissapointing people.
I feel like both of those are constant "running gag" in my life.

Maybe I won't ever be loved, maybe I will never be good enough for anyone. Maybe people reject me because I disappoint them. Or simply because I'm not good enough for them. For anyone.

And now I'm not trying to be an attention whore, it sure looks like it though. I'm just trying to comfort myself in the idea than none of it is worth it.

My so called "friends" don't care. People that I love don't care. NOBODY CARES ABOUT ME !

I'm just a whiny little bitch. I can't do anything but complain. That's all I'm good at anyway.

And please don't come and try to talk me out of thinking like this, telling me it's not true because it is !
All of this !

My life is just a fucking joke ! And I can't get myself out of it. And I never will.

You know what I probably deserve it. All of it.

Don't bother to try to be my "friend". I'm gonna stop and try to be nice to people to make them like me. It's just bullshit. All of this to "be well seen by the world" my ass yeah.

This is bullshit. I should just end everything and finally get the fucking sleep I deserve.

I always did everything in my power to be nice, help others, be their friend and listen to them. But nobody cared about my feelings. They just wanted a tissue in which they could wipe their tears with and throw it away.

This is stupid. Goodnight world. Fucking good luck on being better than me even though you already are. Bye.