Thread by @AngieJayHuman

If I were to become pregnant, my life would be at risk, and I would choose an #abortion. I lost two years of my life after the birth of my second son because the hormones it takes to create human life make me lose my mind.1/14

#ExForcedBirth #WomensRightsAreHumanRights #PPD

I became crippled with fear, and my thoughts were dark. The thoughts told me I needed to die. They told me this all day long. It took every bit of strength I had to fight them. I could barely leave my house. For. Two. Years. 2/14

I had 2 sons, ages 4 yrs. and newborn. I fought hard to stay alive for them. The energy it took to fight my own brain in order to stay alive took so much out of me; I didn't have much left over to give to them. I kept them alive. It was the best I could do. They deserved more.3/

They deserved a mother who could smile. They deserved a mother who wasn't weighed down with guilt for not being able to "handle it." They deserved a mother who could look at them and see joy instead of terror at every horrible thing that could happen to them in this world. 4/14

I wanted to be the best mom to my perfect babies; instead, they had to settle for a broken human who couldn't get out of bed.

My husband was another victim in this nightmare. He had to watch helplessly as I struggled to stay alive, and neither of us knew if I would. 5/14

One day, my husband received a call at work from my son's pre-school. I hadn't picked him up. I wasn't answering my phone. A nearby friend picked up my son. My husband had to drive AN HOUR home, not knowing whether he would find his wife dead by her own hand when he arrived. 6/14

I wasn't dead. I was asleep. My body was adjusting to a change in my medication, and I was sleeping. Not dead.

My husband was so relieved, but the incident only provided more ammo for my suicidal thoughts. What mother could sleep through picking up her son? I deserved death.7/14

My husband deserved to have a partner who could function, but I couldn't. He had to carry our entire family on his back. This certainly wasn't the life we pictured when we made the decision to have children.

Neither of us knew pregnancy hormones would break my brain. 8/14
#PPD

We know now, though, so we took the necessary step to make sure my body and my family would never have to suffer those tortures again.

Because we are privileged, my husband got a vasectomy.

We are one of the lucky Americans with great health insurance. 9/14

#WhitePrivilege

If the #ForcedBirthMovement really cared about life, they would fight to make sure vasectomies and other forms of BC were easily accessible and affordable to everyone, but they never focus on solutions that will actually reduce the number of unwanted pregnancies. 10/14

The world is waking up to the fact that the #ForcedBirthMovement doesn't care about stopping unwanted pregnancies. #ForcedBirthers are obsessed with keeping the power that these #racist abortion policies help them maintain and punishing women who dare have sex for pleasure. 11/14

Because of my privilege, I no longer have to fear the consequences of sex with my husband. It is abhorrent that every woman doesn't have this luxury.

I am still not 100% safe, though. The #MeToo movement highlighted the sexual assault epidemic we face. 12/14

I've already survived rape once. Rape victims shouldn't have to worry about being forced to carry and birth their rapist's child, but we do. I worried about it *during* my rape, in fact. 13/14

https://twitter.com/AngieJayHuman/status/1129494112711970817?s=19

Because of everything I have already survived in my life, I know how much I have to fear. #ForcedBirthers keep adding to my fears.

This is a scary time, but definitely not for the boys. 14/14

#AbortionIsAWomansRight #ExForcedBirth #AlabamaAbortionBill