Thread by @StupidRock

#pregnancyhelpline
I had to sit for a bit after this one, I admit. It was a late night call. While I think this woman ultimately is going to be better off, the call just made me so emotional. The injustice of it all gets to me sometimes. So. Prepare to be a little heartbroken.
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I answer with my standard line, and all I hear is this woman sobbing. I can tell she is trying to calm down, but she's crying too hard and hiccuping while trying to talk. So I just start by telling her it's ok, take her time, breathe. She finally is calmed enough I can
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understand her, but she's still crying. She keeps telling me she is so sorry, she never wanted to do this again, she never thought she'd be in this situation, she can't believe what she did. I'm thinking she's talking about an abortion. I've had a few calls like that. But no.
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I ask her if she can tell me what's going on. As she talks, occasionally stopping to just cry, the story comes out.
She has 2 babies. Twins. One born breach, so he's smaller than his sister. They wear different sized diapers.
She can't keep a job because she can't find
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childcare she trusts which is also affordable.
She met her bf and they were living together for awhile, things were good, but some tragic family issues made him need to go back home to his parents for a while, so now she is alone and left high and dry. She really thought
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she had turned her life around after meeting her bf. She swore to Jesus she'd never do that stuff again. But her kids needed diapers-2 different sizes, and 2 sizes apart--and she was out of a job.
So she turned a trick that night to get cash to go buy her babies diapers.
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And now she feels dirty, ashamed, and just really, really low. She used to be an escort, and she never wanted to return to that life.
Her dad is moving out in a couple weeks to help take care of the kids so she can work. She has a job orientation this week. But she just had
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no one or no place to turn to--no friends, her family lives far away, she doesn't go to church regularly.
How do you even begin to respond to that situation?
I got her a center's info, she promised she'd
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call them in the morning.
She did the only thing she knew she could to provide for her kids right then.
I HATE that she felt trapped, desperate, and like she had to resort that
I HATE that she feels she is a terrible person and bad mom for doing that to buy diapers
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