I received this message on Friday and as much as I had a gazillion things to do, I immediately called Seyi (Not real name)
“Hey, how’re you?” I said to Seyi as soon as she picked my call.
“I’m okay.” Her voice was clear.
“I can’t. I just want to talk, to understand”
I wanted to go off again, trying to tell her what to do but just recently, I’ve learnt to take a deep breath and speak slowly when I’m caught in such situations. So I waited.
I know what I wanted to do but it wasn’t I who was raped.
First thing Seyi said, “Ife, it’s my cousin. I’m not even dressed seductively.”
“He would do it still if you are an Eskimo,”
“I came here to ask him to help daddy again with sponsorship letter for UK Visa. We’re trying to get him there for his follow up Medicals and my cousin helped before with the first letter,” A slight pause and Seyi continued,
“Yes. I understand.” I responded.
“I came here as a happy girl, I don’t know how to leave without my life changing forever,” Said Seyi
“Yes. But he stepped out. He’s been gone for a while though.” Seyi responded.
“I think you should leave. I really think you should leave.”
“I had not even finished telling him why I came before he started rubbing his hand on my thighs. Then pulling my skirt up. I slapped his hand away and looked at him in shock. Only for him to pull me down on the sofa
I think she’s in shock. She’s not responding to anything I’m saying.
I wanted to answer but I wasn’t sure she would hear me.
“Hello Ife, are you there? Do you think so?”
“No. I think you did your best”
“I was afraid. I was blank then I would be afraid again. I felt pain at the base of my hips. I’m still feeling it. When I realised I had given in, I began to fight again but it made the pain worse so I gave up again.”
“I would like to come to pick you up or at least send someone to pick you up,” I said.
“I feel so violated. I should have kept fighting Ife, I didn’t fight enough. I feel so dirty. My body hurts,” silence...then, “He’s back. I’ll call back.”
I called back after 10 minutes. She picked up immediately.
“Have you left? Are you in a car?” My heartbeat rate had spiked. This is not okay!
“Can I come over so we can go to the police immediately?” Me I just wanted to make sure we reported ASAP.
“What if I do the letter for you? Or get someone to do it for you? Please don’t let him get away with this.” My panic mode was now fully and internally activated.
“How’re you feeling?” I asked.
“Bruised. I think I didn’t fight enough. I shouldn’t have given in at any point Ife.”