I never wanted to be a doctor.
I wanted to research stuff, I was intrigued by the world
I wanted to speak to thousands at once
Dance, act, make people smile
Restore ideals
Change values
The buck stops with me.
I’m in a war zone here.
I’m not in the war.
I just watch it.
And try to stop it.
You can tell yourself you are helping someone.
That what you do matters.
But the truth is.
People live and die and life goes on.
I pray because it’s the only way I can stop hurting
I go for walks and pray.
I pray because that is how I can survive the implosion that is impending
He was dead when he came...
For the ten-year-old who was engulfed in flames because he wanted to boil some water to have his bath
His mother thanked me for trying. She said it was nice to see someone who cared.
He was gone too long.
I pray for the abandoned premature baby girl.
I and some nurses would contribute to getting her drugs
I pray for the six-year-old that died within minutes of my exam.
She was stable.
She smiled before she died
The mother had forced things down his throat, she thought she was helping him
I watched her cry her eyes out, begging me to help her
I could not do much by the time he arrived
When it was apparent that WE COULD NOT DO ANYTHING
I pray for the four-year-old I diagnosed with cancer.
As his father clung to me he cried
"Please help my boy"
Hmmm, how interesting I might say any other time. But not this time.
He stared at me, a boy of 10, body ravished by AIDS
When the family didn't have the funds to.
I pray for the woman who bled to death,
From her mouth and anus
Pint after pint we gave her, silent prayers in my head.
Alas, she left this world behind
Knowing that we were ill-equipped, no tools.
We were like warriors with no swords
Fighting death with our bare hands.
I've cried after losing patients
When I don't cry anymore, people think I'm heartless.
I pray for my State and Governor
I pray for my creditors
I pray they understand that I'm broke
The government I took an oath to serve owes me
And yet we must work
Or we're heartless!
Commercialistic doctors who think of themselves (Sigh)
I know I made promises,
Be patient Mum, Dad
I'll make them happen soon
That I don't lose myself in the midst of this all.
I pray for my colleagues
Pray that they don't drift into the darkness
That seeks their souls.
I pray we realize:
That we're not what we once we're
And that we could be better
I hope we wake from our slumber
I pray
We have been taught to be strong
Be well dressed
Alas, a lot of us suffer inside
Here is to every doctor who keeps the ground
I pray for you too
#WorldSuicidePreventionDay
I kept adding my experiences, one by one, every experience here is mine. But speaks the minds of other doctors too.
We are human too.
Love and light ❤️❤️❤️