#Thread So, I got on a fucking roll with writing today during my work date & I wrote 3,492 words. I finished the large body section & fleshed out the outline for the next one. It felt amazing. But in my writing high I didn’t take enough standing & stretching breaks! 😩
So I just got home from post-work date dinner & my body is wrecked. My lower back is flared up & my neck hurts. I for sure overdid it. Tonight I’m going to heavily medicate, but I have a feeling that tomorrow might have to be a read in bed day.
Honestly, I feel so good when I write right now. It really is an adrenaline rush, but I know that pacing myself is the way to sustainably finish this book while taking care of my bodymind. Just because I *can* work fast doesn’t mean I should.
Mostly tweeting this as a reminder to myself, but I guess for others too. Sometimes you just have to slow down. I set SMART daily goals for a reason & I’ve been exceeding them every day, trying to see how much more I can do, pushing myself for no real reason.
I think that push mentality comes from the pressures of grad school & the tenure track. It comes from an unhealthy place of insecurity & fear. I’m trying to remember that I am ok, I have time & I do not have to push the writing until it literally hurts.
We’ll see what tomorrow brings in terms of my capacities. I wrote enough today to meet my daily goals for the whole week anyway. The book *will* get done & I look forward to the entire, sustainable process before me. #AmWriting #ChronicPain
