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So many beautiful, cute, fun & intelligent trans people I am friends with these days. Many who I inspire & in turn am inspired by them as well. Before transition I use to despise being trans, but now 4 years later I'm proud of who I am, who i've become & my future. 1/25
Every day more & more people come out from hiding in the shadows to take a stand for themselves & say to the world they will no longer be afraid to be who they really are & should've always been. When we take that stand to be ourselves, we become a beacon of light for others 2/25
Despite all of the difficulties & loss we each suffer in varying degrees, in the long run I believe that 99.98% of those who have transitioned will agree that it was the BEST decision they've ever made! That one day clarity hits & we finally get a taste of being free. 3/25
Being trans means that at some point growing up into adulthood you realized you're different then what you were designated as at birth. Unlike Cis people who know from day one who they really are, who they are meant to be & their path is relatively clear. 4/25
When you're born as trans your life as a child is even more confusing especially more so for those that realize they are when they're young versus say when they're in their 20's or later & that's not to say that it's any easier even realizing it later in life. 5/25
As a person who is trans herself & realized she was different at age 4, I knew something was wrong & even today almost 4 years into hormones & a small piece of that feeling is still there in me hiding & occasionally it wants to comes out as dysphoria to wreck havoc on me. 6/25
Growing up as trans meant a childhood of pain, torment & what felt like torture day in & day out. Sure I tried to be myself, I tried to share my feelings but back when I was growing up this just wasn't something you do or you would be shunned for it. 7/25
Growing up trans meant living & acting like each day was perfectly fine & ok when in reality it was anything but that. As a trans child growing up I had to learn how to bury my feelings & emotions deep down into a place where no one else would know about them even myself. 8/25
Growing up trans I learned really quick that to a lot of people the world "family" only goes so far in life. If you follow the rules of the cis doctrine & you never defer from that rigid, set structure everyone in your family says they love you. If you deviate from it well.. 9/25
Growing up trans meant being able to exp childhood as the girl I was & should've always been. I lost out on growing up with all the stereotypical things girls do. It also means I lost out on being a boy too. I never got a chance to fit in with either side & it was tough. 10/25
Growing up trans meant that when my teen years began what I thought was hell everyday already then multiplied by 1000 when puberty hit me. Instead of experiencing happiness, boobs, periods, I experienced changes in my voice, facial & body hair & worst of all down there. 11/25
Growing up trans meant finding ways to cope with the difficulties, the pain, the agony & torture felt every day being stuck as someone I wasn't. My coping with my emotions involved food & lots of it. Others I know used drugs, alcohol, cutting & suicide to relieve their pain.12/25
Growing up trans meant facing the so-called grim reaper when I felt I couldn't face things any longer & turned to suicide as a means of relief because no one believed me when I told them. I literally tried to harm myself at age 9, 13, 14, 18, 20, 27, 33 & 37. 13/25
Growing up trans meant thinking I was the only one going through all of this when in reality there were millions & millions of other kids going through the same exact thing as me. Unlike in 2019 where medical professionals & parents acknowledge & accept trans kids 14/25
Back in the 80's, 90's & early 00's were not acknowledged or accepted. We were dehumanized, abused both mentally &/or physically, bullied, made fun of, kicked out by our parents, hospitalized as crazy & treated as demons, filth & pestilence by others even the ones we loved. 15/25
Growing up trans meant realizing & having to live in fear that coming out as ourselves could possibly mean losing everything & everyone that we valued, looked up to & loved. For many of us that meant doing whatever it took to make ourselves feel into something we weren't. 16/25
Growing up trans meant constant bullying not just at school but at home too. At 7 years old I was driven face first into a brick wall at school, at 9 years old kids planted another childs things in my backpack while throwing mine in a toilet & it went on from there. 17/25
Growing up trans meant having to bear the wrath & pain as 2 of my best cis girl friends felt the need to push themselves away from being my friend because they were afraid of being made fun of or being bullied themselves. 18/25
Growing up trans meant having to accept myself first as trans & then taking the neccessary steps forward in to seek help & then start transition, hormones, hair removal, surgeries etc. It also meant having to ask a cis female friend what to do when I got my first period. 19/25
Growing up trans meant telling a cis medical professional about my inner most feelings, secrets & desires in order to get approval from them & then my doctor that I met their definition of what it means to actually be transgender. 20/25
Growing up trans means that U can't change the past or what has happened to me already but it does mean I can accept who I am today & am into what will be only my 2nd year of feeling what something close to being normal feels like. 21/25
Growing up trans means that I wish I could've had the inner strength & support to transition before puberty or at least in my teens or 20's. My life would be completely different now I'm sure of it. Most likely I would've been in deep stealth working as a TV meteorologist. 22/25
Most of all growing up trans & being where I am today means I get to tell everyone else out there that it is ok to be yourself & it's ok to grow up as trans though the hardships are always there we can eventually & finally be who we were really meant to be. 23/25
Growing up as trans & Hong through e everything I have gives me the ability to tell others my story & sometimes encourage their own transitions. Being a trans person who grew up without support gives me the chance to talk to & encourage parents of today to listen to their 24/25
Own children, allow your kids to Express for themselves who they really are & then allow medical professionals to help determine a course of action for your child that benefits what they want & how they see themselves while knowing their parents will support them 100%. 25/25
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