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it's a (not good) study about interacting with a computer using your brain by focusing on a noise while other noises are playing.... [look ma, no hands!...]
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well, sit for a spell and roll up your sleeves cuz we're getting into it
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20 times in a row...
for 4 sets of twenty...
for 4 noise types...
for 3 conditions...
over 4 sessions...
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aka the part where i started yelling "this is rapey and problematic as fuck"
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it's rapey noise study™, condition 2, session 2
we're listing to "speech tones" aka distorted samples of white and generically American sounding voices say noises that resemble words...
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the poor unfortunate soul who got stuck running this study [notably, NOT the study designer] starts playing the "speech" noises
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by this point, the rapey noise study™ is giving me a headache
[6 big speakers surrounding 1 me]
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the first noise i am supposed to listen for plays:
"no no no"
in a soft feminine tone
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drowned out by a sea of distorted noise
and then it's quiet again
noise loop 1 in this round of the rapey noise study™ is done
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"Yes. Yes. Yes."
in a firm masculine tone
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it's as if I'm back in that spot, saying "no no no" into a sea of noises—no one is listening, no one notices
"no no no" get drowned out
in the rapey noise study™ and irl
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so I sit there, holding my mouth shut,
listening to this bullshit, rapey, #toxicmasculinity loop
over
and over
and over and over
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i hear the booming "Yes. Yes. Yes"
I suddenly remember the scene from Singing in the Rain when the audio file gets out of sync with the talking picture—still silently following the rapey noise study™ proceedures
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the rapey noise study™ is recreating this moment in a perfectly 2019 techno-sadist fashion
[why make a musical when you can program problematic oppressive shit into your code?]
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there is smoke blowing out of my ears
poor unfortunate soul running the rapey noise study™ looks at me and my distress and says,
"That's 20"
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"I don't think I can do this [rapey noise study™] anymore. I'm sorry, I'm fucking furious"
[i apologized!?!? of course I apologized, society taught me to be careful about disappointing folks—cough, cis-men, cough, white cis-men]
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"Holy hell, this is problematic and rapey, I don't think I can keep doing this... I have never rage quit in the middle of a study before, but I don't think I can finish the rapey noise study™
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"is that not super rapey?" "this is so problematic! right?"
.... to be continued
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my feelings are VALID and I am fucking ANGRY
how the fuck did the rapey noise study™ get this far?!?
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Dear #UX, #HCI, #UI, #CS, #TECH, and other #RESEARCHERS in this/related areas
stop
this
shit
if you are working in this area—especially if you're white, male, cis, Western, english speaking, American, etc—it is time to listen and learn
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listen—really listen—to queer disabled folks
listen to black people, to native folks, to people of color
listen to women and cis women and enby and gnc and trans folks
listen to people NOT speaking english | english should != access
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but i have EVERY RIGHT to be angry
the rapey noise study™ is a problem
the culture that let it get this far, with so many participants before me is a problem
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listening to #ToxicMasculinity on loop and not having the space, safety, power, or time to say something IS A PROBLEM
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#TruthHurts
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#LIZZO
#100PERCENTTHATBITCH
Basically turning this:
Into this:
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qz.com/work/1178770/s… - @EricaJoy
designjusticenetwork.org @schock
civic.mit.edu/2015/03/19/ant… - @jpdimond
morgan-klaus.com/sigchi-gender-… - @morganklauss (and more, like @farbandish @WomensFormula)
blackwomenincomputing.org/wp-content/upl… - @JDBurge
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