I was vanished a couple of hours because I was tracking back all the media I needed for a thread tonight. Well, I promised earlier today for a story-telling. Well, coming right up!
I even surprised even right to share with you guys. Its pretty scary. (I'll share my short films link later on).
*clears throat* anyways ...
The substance abuse habit was getting worse, and the whispers, saw things that people didn't see. This is psychotic symptom.
That one afternoon, with my worst appearance, I forced myself to walk to the counselling office, besides the chancellor building in the campus.
Came to the office, the staff asked me to fill a form
Translation: "You want me to fill a form in this state of mind?
I filled the form and circled it big and thick with that black pen on the suicide attempts blank.
The staffs looked at me, panic. "9 am tomorrow, miss sarah".
I shook my head and refused to answer it. Up until one point, I couldn't shove it down anymore. I was blank.
I couldn't see anything. It was dark. I swear that time I was in that counselling room.
"Aikk? Kenapa?
She was breathing heavily while gripping my hands. She quickly called someone on the phone while I was actually blurred of why suddenly the counsellor acted like that
Jeez, the acute psychiatric ward.
I was admitted for a week. There were many lecturers visited me and as well as my classmates (surprisingly people ACTUALLY DO CARE about me)
People around me are actually do care about me.
I asked one of the lecturers, "Why happened in the counselling room?
"Oh sarah", with soft voice, "you were actually slapped and shoved the counsellor".
I choked.
Ladies and gentlemen, being diagnosed is ONE MATTER. And TO LIVE in that diagnose, to swallow the truth, is ANOTHER MATTER. Entirely.
Who felt me here? Quote. (borak sorang-sorang aku)
I hate Olazapine because it made me increase my weight. And I hate Epilim because its caffeine & alcohol intolerance
The end.
Any question? Shoot me.